The "soft" sweater was in the trash before the elevator even reached the penthouse floor.
It was a costume that didn't fit, a lie made of wool and "maternal instinct." Delaney stood in her kitchen, her hands trembling as she poured a glass of scotch that tasted like iodine and old sins. Viktor was in his room, the door closed, probably already drawing something she wouldn't understand with the charcoal she'd bought him to buy his love.
She looked at her laptop. The screen was dark, but she could feel the file behind the black glass, pulsing like a heart.
The news alert hadn't been a warning; it was a challenge. Someone elseāsome hack with a Twitter following and a thirst for clicksāwas trying to step into her territory. They were going to tell a shallow, cheap version of the story she had bled for. They were going to make Elena a victim and the Fighter a hero.
The guilt she'd felt in the mall began to curdle. It turned from a heavy ache into a sharp, acidic bitterness.
She thought of the Fighter's face in the ringāthe glitter, the sass, the way he moved like the world owed him a standing ovation. He wasn't a hero. He was a liar. He was a product of the same "dirt" that had produced her, yet he had found a way to make the dirt look like diamonds.
She sat down at the desk. Her fingers hovered over the keys, and for a split second, she looked at the "Delete" key. She thought of the sketchbook. She thought of the way Viktor had looked at her in the music storeāthe fleeting second where he'd seen a human being instead of a predator.
But the obsession was stronger than the love. The need to be right, to be the one who pulled the trigger on the Truth, was the only thing that made the silence in her life bearable.
She opened the draft. The neutral version. She highlighted the entire thingāevery soft word, every "benefit of the doubt," every sentence that humanized the boy from Detroitāand she hit Delete.
Her eyes were bloodshot, the "fixation" migraine thumping behind her temple like a war drum. She started typing, her speed increasing until the room was filled with the frantic, mechanical clack-clack-clack of her keyboard.
She wasn't just exposing him anymore. She was dismantling him. She wove in the "Heathers" comment, the "freak" narrative from Detroit, the "dental" lieābut she twisted them. She made the Fighter's protection of his sister look like a calculated cover-up for something darker. She made his masculinity look like a performance of a disturbed mind.
She convinced herself it was her duty. If she didn't ruin him, she was letting the "Prophet" win. She was letting the world be fooled by another false god.
Her face was reflected in the screen, pale and ghostly, her features sharpened by the blue light into something unrecognizable.
By 3:00 AM, the article wasn't a report. It was an execution.
She didn't look toward Viktor's room as she hovered her mouse over the Submit button. She didn't think about the pretzels or the mall or the untied laces. She only thought about the noise. The terrible, beautiful noise that would finally drown out the silence of her own heart.