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Part III: Blood & Ashes
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It was four in the morning when the door opened.

No warning. No sound of movement from inside first. Raul had fallen asleep against the wall with his chin on his chest, the sleeping bag he'd threatened to get still unrolled beside him. Elena was on the couch with her knees up, staring at the ceiling, not sleeping but not fully awake either — just existing in the particular exhaustion of someone who has been afraid for too long.

The door groaned. The wood had swollen from the heat and it protested the movement, and that sound was what woke Raul — his head snapping up, hand going to his knee, eyes finding the doorframe.

The Fighter stood in it.

Raul stopped breathing for a second. Elena sat up slowly from the couch, feet finding the floor, and when she saw him she went very still.

He looked like the aftermath of something. The sweatshirt he was wearing was three sizes too big, swallowing his shoulders, and his face — usually so sharp, the face that cameras loved, the face Delaney had built a whole obsession around — was hollowed out and grey. The skin under his eyes had gone a bruised, sickly purple. His posture had collapsed inward in a way that had nothing to do with his body and everything to do with what had been happening inside it.

He stood in the doorway and looked at the floor and said nothing.

"Champ." Raul's voice came out low. He stood up carefully, like sudden movement might break something. He moved forward slowly and put both hands on the Fighter's shoulders. Felt the tension in them. "Hey. You're here. Okay. You're here."

The Fighter didn't look up. His chest moved in shallow, jagged rhythms, like someone who had forgotten to breathe properly and was remembering how.

"I'm fine," he said. His voice was a dry rasp, the sound of vocal cords that hadn't been used in days.

Elena looked at him from across the room.

"Fine," she said.

It wasn't a question. It wasn't even really a word. It was just the sound of something giving way.

She crossed the room in four steps. Raul had just enough time to move his hands before Elena was in front of her brother, and her voice, when it came, didn't shake — it cracked like something under pressure that had finally found its fault line.

"You lock yourself in a dark box for three days." Her eyes were bright and furious and wet at the edges. "Three days. While the whole world calls us a marketing scam. While that woman tears our lives apart for content and I am out here answering the door and watching the news and standing in this hallway wondering—"

She stopped. Her jaw tightened.

"They're saying our childhood was a script, do you understand that? They're calling me a paid actor. And you're in there being a ghost and she's winning, she's actually winning—"
"Elena—" Raul started.
"No." She didn't take her eyes off her brother. "Look at him, Raul. He's doing exactly what she wanted. She called him a construct, she called him a sociopath, and he went and proved her right by disappearing." Her voice cracked on the last word. "You think you're the only one hurting?"

The Fighter looked up for the first time.

His eyes were bloodshot and slow to focus, tracking her face like someone coming back from a very long distance. He looked at her for a moment without speaking — not because he had nothing to say but because words were arriving in the wrong order, like a translation happening a beat too late.

"I didn't want you to see the Detroit stuff," he said finally. "The files. The things I—" He stopped. Started again. "I kept things from you. To keep you out of it. And she found them anyway and put them on a screen and I—"
"I don't care about the files."
"El—"
"I don't." Her voice was very quiet now, which was somehow worse than the shouting. "I care about the person who pulled me out of a burning building when I was nine years old and told me we were going to be fine. I care about that person. Not a DNA test. Not a report. Not whatever Delaney Schulz decided to make out of us."

She looked at him steadily, even though her chin was trembling.

"Your blood didn't change because a screen said so. But if you stay in that room — if you keep being this — then she wins. She actually kills us."

The silence that followed was the kind that has weight.

Raul stood back and let it be.

The Fighter looked at his hands. The hands that had been in the cold sliver of light for three days, the hands that felt like evidence of something he didn't choose and couldn't return. He turned them over slowly. Then he closed them into fists — not in anger, just in the old automatic way, the way that had always meant I'm still here, I'm still in it.

The tremors didn't stop. But something else did.

"I'm not a ghost," he said. It came out rough and unsteady, like a first attempt at something. "I was just—" He looked for the word. Didn't find the right one. "I needed to know if I could still find the floor in there."
"And?" Raul said.

The Fighter looked at him.

"It took a while," he said.

Raul let out a breath that was almost a laugh — the kind that happens when fear loosens its grip just enough to let something else through. He pulled the Fighter forward by the back of the neck, forehead to forehead, the way he always did, and held him there for a second.

Elena watched them. She wiped her face with the back of her hand, not elegantly, not caring.

"There's cold lemon chicken," she said.
"Yeah," the Fighter said into Raul's shoulder. "I know. I could smell it."
"The whole time?"
"The whole time."

She stared at him.

"You're unbelievable."
"I know."
"I'm still angry at you."
"I know that too."

She crossed the room and put her arms around both of them, and nobody said anything for a while, and the apartment held all three of them in its 4 AM quiet, and outside Chicago kept going the way it always did, not knowing or caring, which was fine.

It didn't need to know. This was enough.

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The floor is still there. It was always there.
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